It's 4:28 AM.
- Jul 26
- 4 min read
Updated: Aug 14
It's 4:28 AM. My partner is sleeping in the next room, and I'm here, on the sofa, staring at My box of tarot cards.
It's 4:31 AM. I grab and pull on My Magen David*(1) necklace, the chain of which also holds the key to My muse's collar, which she likes to wear when she sleeps.
It's 4:33 AM.
This is the sort of blog post that needs to be written in first person, because... well, because that's just how this works.
That's just how I give over My thoughts best.
So read with Me.
Follow My thread as I show you why I'm up at 4:36 AM, writing on My erotic hypnosis blog about My spirituality and personal philosophies.
It's been a few months of stewing on this.
After all, it's an erotic hypnosis blog.
It's erotic hypnosis content.
What would My philosophical rambles do, here, in My tiny, sexy, and comfy corner of the internet?
... And then I realized, over time, that it doesn't matter if I reach one person or several hundred...
In Judaism, there's a belief that... Well, I'll let the Talmud speak for itself:

"לְפִיכָךְ נִבְרָא אָדָם יְחִידִי, לְלַמֶּדְךָ שֶׁכׇּל הַמְאַבֵּד נֶפֶשׁ אַחַת מִיִּשְׂרָאֵל*(2), מַעֲלֶה עָלָיו הַכָּתוּב*(3) כְּאִילּוּ אִיבֵּד עוֹלָם מָלֵא. וְכׇל הַמְקַיֵּים*(4) נֶפֶשׁ אַחַת מִיִּשְׂרָאֵל, מַעֲלֶה עָלָיו הַכָּתוּב כְּאִילּוּ קִיֵּים עוֹלָם מָלֵא."
(Sanhedrin 37a, 13)

"It is for that reason that Adam was created alone, to teach us that anyone who loses*(2) a single Jewish soul*(3), the writings put upon him*(4) that he has lost an entire world. And all those that help fulfill*(4) a single Jewish soul, it is put upon him that he has fulfilled an entire world."
(Sanhedrin 37a, 13)
-Hebrew quote extracted from Sefaria's online repository of Judaica, and the translation is My own, based on My 12 years of Ultra Orthodox Jewish schooling.
While I am no longer religious, in the Ultra-Orthodox Jewish sense of the word, I still do believe in the heart of this passage.
"Whoever helps someone find personal fulfillment, it is as though he has helped an entire world."
So...
I've already shared My personal beliefs with one person, and she has thanked Me for changing her life for the better.
The fact of the matter is, I've already helped one person, and for that I am happy. I'd love to help another person, or as many as I can, see The Universe as I do, to see the peace you can find if you just take a few deep breaths and reminding yourself that The Universe is... us.
At the end of the day... I believe that The Universe is... all of us. On an individual level, you are The Universe.
It's 7:57 AM.
I am sitting up in bed now, my muse and partner sleeping next to Me.
I've had this happen before... I get all philosophical and spiritual in My thinking and somehow I feel energized, like something is flowing through me and leaving residual energy.
I've been constantly checking Myself.
Am I manic? I've never had an episode of mania before, but there's always a first time, right?
But I keep asking people to check Me, to tell Me if I'm sounding like my grasp of reality seems off, and the only thing they've said is "Just make sure you're laying in bed for some time, even if you don't need to sleep." I've even checked with a psychological professional to make sure I don't sound detached from reality or over grandiose, and their answer was along the lines of the above, too.
So here I am. 8:15 AM, pondering where to go from here.
I want to share My view of The Universe, I want others to see the beauty and power and peace that I've seen, that I witness and keep mindfully witnessing.
There is so much to unfurl.
So much to share.
But for now, I will just thank you for staying with Me here, in this space, and allowing Me to share a glimmer of My beliefs and philosophies with you through the thread of this blog post.
There is so much more to come. I don't yet know what shape this all will take, but I would like to continue sharing My musings and rambles more openly - integrating My spirituality, My history, My philosophy, and My continual journey of healing as much as I think you could feel alongside Me as I share it.
I hope that you come along for the journey with Me and that My experiences and worldview can help you see more beauty and peace.

*(1) Star of David, a symbol of Jewish persistence and survival.
*(2) Literally "loses" but the meaning here is "kills".
*(3) It says "Jewish soul" because that is the language of the Talmud as it was written by the scholars at the time. It is assumed by pretty much everyone that this is a passage that applies to any human, not only Jewish souls.
*(4) literally "put upon him" but in this case meaning "It is his responsibility", along the lines of "it was held against him".
*(5) Literally "fulfill". The well-understood meaning is "save the life of", which, yes. And also, I say, "helps reach personal fulfillment".
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